Well, the last few weeks have been interesting to say the least! If I can just be bold and honest here (and TRUST me, this is not me fishing for a compliment, it’s me being honest and REAL and not just posting “pretty pictures” and acting like everything is ok!) …. I had a pretty FALSE view of what I would look like pregnant, and while I can find pretty light, have my husband take some photos of me in a cute outfit, these days you most often will find me at home in his oversized flannel pants of E’s and a $5 Old Navy Tank top that actually fits…. You see, the thing is, I thought I would look like this at about 35 weeks pregnant and not 25 weeks pregnant! I know … I know…. that’s insecurity creeping through, but MAN I am only human! I will say, I asked E to snap these photos for me for a couple reasons :
1.) I do indeed want to document this baby girls growth and show her one day, the miracle that she is!
2.) I felt obligated after starting with a few maternity outfit posts to keep going because if I do not then I am not being real, and rather I am being that “fake-pinterest-perfect-and-my-life-is-worthy-of-instagramming-everything” girl that I don’t want to be…. Which I am THANKFUL for that feeling of obligation, because the day we took these, I was quite possibly feeling my WORST but came away with some new thoughts on body changes.
I had just been to the Dr. where they told me my “new” weight and it’s hard to see your body change SO fast! BUT alas, after E took these photos, I thought to myself ” Lord, you are growing this little girl in me, I am thrilled and honored with that responsibility and I am SO SO Thankful to have a husband who sees right past my insecurity and tells me how beautiful I am”….. So, while these are pretty “good angles” by a great photographer, it’s not how I look everyday and I want people to know that! To know the insecurity is normal, it’s OK to feel that way some days and then other days to look at yourself and feel BEAUTIFUL. I give you permission to feel EITHER WAY! But what I don’t give you permission to do, is compare yourself to ANY OTHER PREGNANT WOMAN and wonder why you don’t look like that … because that’s what I was doing the last couple weeks only to realize IT DOESNT MATTER!!! I am growing a little human, doing the best I can and looking pretty fly if you ask me! So no matter what… I pledge to do AT LEAST 3 more Maternity outfit posts before baby girl arrives, EVEN IF I FEEL INSECURE…. and again…. it’s not fishing for compliments, it’s me being real and honest about my body changes, emotions and weight gain that I did not know would be hard for me. Plus, my Sweet Sury Girl (Dog) snuck into a few of these shots and I ADORE those ones. 😉
So with that, I think I will be living in dresses this summer and find that a simple belt around the waist helps define my belly a bit and makes me proud of it!Dress: Target Sandals: Forever 21 Bracelet: Morea Seal Rings: Madewell The Dog – Sweet Sury Girl: The Pound 😉